Good morning everyone! To some of you I should say good afternoon or good evening. I channeled Yucka this morning, and of course, Erik butts in every once in a while. He got in trouble by Yucka hahaha! We were talking about letting go, and how simple life can really be. I hope you enjoy!
Me: I don’t know what to ask you.
Yucka: Oh sweetheart, you don’t have to have a question. I can just feel you out to see what’s on your mind.
Me: That sounded dirty.
Yucka: (giggles) You are wondering why your ego is underdeveloped and what that means.
Me: Yes, a little bit.
Yucka: It’s simple. You are humble. You do not think you are worthy, and you have low self esteem. You can’t take a compliment, and you get embarrassed when people talk well about you.
Yucka: Lack of self love, my dear. You even created this alter ego of Erik that comes and hurts you emotionally. My dear, no one is hurting you. Only you are hurting yourself.
Me: How do I stop?
Yucka: You are working on it. You have done a lot of work on yourself, but you still have a lot to do.
Me: I just want to have everything figured out right now. I want to have all my ducks in a row.
Yucka: Be patient. Remember what we spoke about? Be kind to yourself. You really need to take a day off from everything. A day off from your laptop to be specific. Spend time with your boyfriend, and become more grounded… You feel so gloomy this morning.
Erik: It was the talk we had last night.
Yucka: About Josh?
Me: I know we don’t spend enough time together, and I feel like we’re distant. He’s off doing his own thing, and I have nothing to do with it at all. I support him, but the only thing I do is go to his band’s gigs to show support.
Yucka: And that’s enough. You have no idea how much that means to him. It means a lot to you that he supports you with your readings even though he doesn’t believe in it. He lets you follow your dreams, and you do the same. You are worried you two are drifting apart, but you’re not. You’re putting that fearful energy out there.
Erik: That’s what I told her.
Yucka: Let me finish, Erik. You have nothing to worry about, honey. Nothing at all! He loves you like crazy, and he could never imagine his life without you. He’s nuts over you! You got him in the palm of your hand, sweetheart. Don’t worry about unnecessary things. If you want to, spend time with him this evening. Tell him to stay home from band practice to spend time with you. No, you don’t have to go out to eat anywhere. Just being in the same room will make a difference. You’re being harder on yourself right now, which brings me back to the underdeveloped ego. All this negativity you’re feeling is you. It’s all you, so stop it!
Me: (Laughs) Just stop it?
Yucka: Yes! Just let it go. Everyone always asks “but how do I let go? What do I do?” You’re making it more complicated than it has to be because it’s very simple. I think it’s because it’s so simple you don’t believe that it could be. You have lived your whole lives thinking that everything is hard. You have a hard time manifesting things here, and I think that has a lot to do with it. You think everything here has to be difficult, and when it isn’t, you think you’re doing it wrong or that it isn’t the right answer.
Me: Like me in my math classes in high school. If the question was super easy to answer, then you’re probably doing it wrong.
Yucka: (Giggles) Yes! Yes, like your math classes.
Erik: But this isn’t math class, Heather. This is life!
Yucka: And it is fairly simple. Just… Let go. Like releasing a balloon or letting go of the door handle. Just drop it. It’s the same simple principle. So let go of your grief you created within yourself…. That’s a good visual, Heather. You imagined a black baton that was created purely out of your grief about Josh, and you were holding it in your hand. Then you just let it go and let it drop to the floor. Sometimes people need to visualize things like that to help them. I want everyone to visualize this! I want everyone to do that exercise. I want them to visualize a balloon—
Erik: You’re really liking the balloons today.
Yucka: Shut up, Erik! Let me finish. I want them to put all the negative shit they’re feeling into the balloon. This energy is what is creating the balloon itself, and then I want them to let go of the string and watch it fly away. I want them to imagine feeling a sense of relief the more and more the balloon drifts away. Do this a couple of times a day.
Me: Good exercise.
Yucka: (Puts her hands on her hips and smiles) And you said you had nothing to talk about.
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